My resolution this year was to leave it all behind. I'm struggling, really. But I'm doing a decent job of it as well. Nonetheless...it's time I leave everything behind that's negative. It's time I start new, that I sit here and tell myself not to worry about it or stress about it.

The beginning of the year was nice, if not a little stressful. We had a month long vacation. We started our real trip in Las Vegas, Nevada. Then went to the Hoover Dam, the Grand Canyon, and the Petrified Forest. The Grand Canyon was wonderful, absolutely beautiful. Afterward, we went Albuquerque, New Mexico were I used to live and prowled around there. Then we went to Roswell, which actually didn't have much to do. But going to the Museum was interesting and the hotel room we had was very nice. We stopped in Texas for about a week with my parents, and had tons of fun playing with the dogs and just chilling. Then we went to Lake Charles, to stay with my bio-mother/sister. Me and Vincent found that it was probably smarter for us to stay here, instead of moving to Florida. In the end, it was a great choice...at least, a better choice. We went to Florida to visit for a little less then a week...and it was hell for me. But, whatever. There's nothing I can do about my 'in-laws', so to speak. If Vincent doesn't want to stand up to his mother, it's not my problem to deal with. We returned to Louisiana and now we are here. Leaving all the bullshit behind.

I'm going to empty my phone of unwanted phone numbers, memories I don't want to remember. I'm deleting people off of my watch list, and my friends list on various accounts. Ten to one, if you read this, it has nothing to do with you, and you won't have to worry about loosing a friend. All these people I've gotten rid of are no longer friends. I have to say this though, past events will always haunt me. I lost a friend a couple of years back because she blames me for something her girlfriend did. It will always sorely hurt me, but it hurts a lot less now that I'm fifteen or more hundred miles away from her. Where I can go to Petsmart now and not have to worry about running into her and feeling pain. I know I used to be a horrible person when I was in High School, but I grew up since then. I wouldn't do something stupid like that anymore. I was so excited about moving Missoula and having my best friend back, only to have that killed.

This is what I mean by leaving things behind. I am going to leave this behind. I always said in the back of my mind that if you ever needed something, I would be there for you, even after you pointed your finger at me. But not anymore. I'm tired of giving people second, third, fourth and fifth chances. It ends this year. Because in the end, I'm the better person. I'm the person that has always been exceedingly good with jobs and supporting myself. I'm the person who will help almost anyone. I have a better heart then you ever will.

And it's simple as that. There's other people on this list, no doubt about it. It's a long list of people taking advantage of me. I'm sad to have them go forever, but it's time. It's time I stop thinking about them, and dwelling over the what if's and has been. So, if you try calling me, or messaging me...whoever you may be, and I don't readily answer...then I've moved on. I'm leaving you behind.

On the less ventful side of things, I'm going to get this account up and running again, starting with the pictures from our trip and some old pictures that I still need to post.